This morning while I was changing bed sheet in our room, lolo Z called me, he wasn't feeling any good, he's very tired and was trembling. Something is bothering but he don't know what, he prefer go back in bed and rest. I ask him if he have difficulty in breathing, does he have an headache or chestpain (I'm afraid if he will have an attack cerebral or cardiac accross of this sickness he is half paralyzed) politely he assured me not necessary to worry for the moment he can move well and can speak clearly. He just don't understand why he is very weak and dense. All he wanted to do is to cry.
And so he cry.... I let his head on my shoulder with my arms embracing and tapping him tenderly to say "it's alright, I am here if you need me" if crying is the only way he can feel little bit better then I will let him cry even more harder.
I know perfectly why he is in the mood of depression. His cher wife who took care and devoted her life for him unfortunately she passed away and it's been 7 months already. And now his sons never bothered to visit him (honestly he don't give a damn to them and so am i).
When his wife died he was left alone with his old age and critical health condition, he need a person to watch over him and so that is how my husband (his 3rd son) and me decided to live with him in his house with our baby a.k.a "bébéchingching".
A few minutes later (lolo Z still trying to recover his senses) I ask him if he want to talk to a person someone who is mature,professional something like spiritual adviser not necessary a priest but someone who can console him during this time of grief. Maybe a Psychiatrist but he became more nervy when I propose this ( well ok let's forget it, calmez toi! ).
Personally, I can give sincere words of encouragement to my father in law, help him to find his goal to keep him on track but the only thing I cannot do and no one can possibly make is to erase the pain he felt inside in his heart...loosing the love of his life...his dearest wife...to forget is impossible!
Until this moment lolo Z suffer enormously from missing her, each day is a torture, living with no reason juste like king solomon said "it's like chasing the wind". Mais oui c'est comme ça...
Well guys, i must end it up here our bébéchingching is calling my attention! Bonjournee â tous!
p.s
lolo Z is taking medicine anti-deppresant, in my opinion it is not good to prend it habitually but it helps!
mao ra ni akong ika sulti nimo. I Lab you..ro!! 
Two different types; Haricot vert(green) Haricot jaune (yellow).
Tomatoes in France!
) en brief, I am a stay home mom who hope to get a job or else be dependent to my husband and the allocation familial that luxembourg gives. For now here is the list of the members of family (in France) that I am living my life with.
yes! multiply 7 by age of human)
